I finished reading Scared Sick: The Role of Childhood Trauma in Adult Disease by Robin Karr-Morse and with Meredith S. Wiley. At the end of the book they talked about the number of children worldwide that are being traumatized at this point in time. I could feel my murderous rage and anger rise up at this. It then ignited my passion and I started to think about how I could be part of a system that addresses the abuse of children worldwide. It has huge implications for where we will be as a species in the years to come. I have always been an activist in dealing with the education of inner city children where 40% of the children have PTSD due to childhood developmental trauma. My activism began with teaching in inner city schools for over 15 years. I then continued my activism while getting my Masters and Ph. D in education with a focus on urban education. During all the time I studied, I worked in urban schools with student teachers and helped run a program for graduate students interested in working in urban schools. Finally, I taught student teachers about issues of classroom management and negotiating power and powerlessness in the classroom at a University. In all, I had 25 meaningful years in the urban setting. Then in 2006, I had my complete physical breakdown and eventually a mental health breakdown in 2008. Both breakdowns were connected to my severe, chronic, complex PTSD.

Now I have learned to live fully with my PTSD. Part of that is living comfortably from the basement of my home where I am healing my overstimulated central nervous system. Yet, I still have this deep yearning to be an activist in this worldwide epidemic of childhood abuse and developmental trauma. Again, my reality is that daily self care is a challenge some days. I am racking my brain trying to see how I could use cyberspace to address these pressing issues. I want to turn my murderous rage into a power that works to lessen child abuse and trauma while also challenging worldwide structures that support the abuse and traumatization. It is a dream at this point. I really feel led in this direction but the challenges from my PTSD are immense.

I feel that my blog could be a way of addressing these issues. I will just need to be more educated around the topics. My best time to focus is when I first wake up in the morning. In fact, for the past 2 days, I have been up since 1 am. Sleep is one of my constant challenges.

Another avenue of getting involved is by learning about organizations that are already working to challenge worldwide systems of abuse. This will require some research which I have not had the mental ability to do yet due to being easily overwhelmed with the internet.

Any suggestions or leads would be greatly appreciated.