It has been so hard to write the last few days. I have been involved with many seminars and I tend to get overwhelmed and my writing shuts down. Over-stimulation can take many forms (even too much light) and it shuts much of me down.
In last week’s blogs I talked about my lack of grieving during my 3 miscarriages. After thinking this week, intellectually and emotionally I think I have processed these losses, however, I never let out the embodied emotions that accompanied these losses. Not only do I have the embodied grief of these miscarriages, I have the grief of not having had my need for safety met in my life until a few years ago. I am grieving the loss of curiosity and spontaneity in life due to lack of feeling safe for all those years. Also, I am grieving the lack of emotional validation in my life and the intense loneliness I felt in a large family and community. There are many other losses as well. Continue reading →
My husband brought three angel pins home the other day, one for each of the miscarriages we had together. It was such a beautiful thought. I have been trying to make peace and to mourn these miscarriages. I never did that when they happened. Yesterday, I held the pins in my hands and began a conversation with them. Continue reading →
Yesterday I learned that I truly love attending to the inner realm and to my home life – a very feminine quality that I have discovered I thrive in. Also, I am very receptive to other people’s energies and emotions, another feminine quality. I am a nurturer of the world’s children never having had any of my own. I feel a deep love for so many, especially my nieces and nephews and my great nieces and nephews. Continue reading →