I find myself having to stop and rub my head to soothe myself from this unrelenting anxiety I have from feeling so fully alive mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally. I reach out to connect with Lisa and my husband. I do not need to talk to them, I just need to think of their love and my heart becomes so full while I live with such pain and suffering. I have really lived into my mantra, I embrace my life with ease and flow.
I feel compelled to start to write again so here it is. A few weeks ago I met with one of my doctors. He said Janet, having cancer is a terrible thing and can rob you of your life but having a disease of the mind can also rob you of your life. As I first heard this I was in full agreement. Yes, my PTSD has robbed me from the life I knew. However, as time has passed since I heard this, I have really realized that for the last 11 years I have been building a totally new life. Continue reading →