I have come to the conclusion that I have learned to live in a constant state of amazement no matter what else I am feeling. Today I am holding both my great anxiety with my sense of wonder and amazement. It is a pure gift to be able to be present to the moment right now as opposed to my past practice of separating from it. I sit with my hands wide open and letting the universe hold this intensity with me. I am loving this moment and at the same time feeling sadness for my suffering. I am complete because I have such a rich inner life.