I feel a depth of intimacy with all of life. I feel this deep intimacy with my soul and my intuition. I am able to trust them enough to let them lead me throughout my day. They are leading me to a way of being that focuses on being present with the beauty and peace that surrounds me.
Each day I pray that I will know what it is like to feel this sense of safety with such beauty and peace yet this feeling eludes me because I have not gotten comfortable with my never ending suffering and hyperarousal. I have to be safe with this part of my essence and continue to learn to hold it with such beauty and peace as well. I sit with my hands wide open beckoning the universe to help me hold it all with compassion and gentleness, while also being compassionate with myself and my suffering.
Living Purposefully with Severe Chronic PTSD 
I hope you found some moments of safety.
Thanks for your comment. It took me so long to respond because it made me really think. I do have real deep moments of safety and it only continues to grow deeper and deeper as I embrace the innocence and vibrancy of my inner child and let nature and my significant others, my husband, my dog and my therapist, love me as I am. To love and accept me with my PTSD, Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia. Today, I celebrate that I can rest in that deep love and there is where my safety lies.
Again, thanks for the comment.
Sure. I often think of you.