I am so grateful I have the opportunity to allow my deeper knowing to lead me through my day. Grateful I am able to be in resonance with the energies of the universe within me and around me and letting them lead me through my day. As I look back over the last 13 years, I can see them all as pure gift for I have creatively learned to gently and respectfully work with my severe PTSD, Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia.
Now I feel completely and fully myself in the world as I am. Now I live fully aligned with my deep inner knowing and I can trust that implicitly. Again, there is no greater gift to celebrate this Holiday Season.
At this Holiday season I am also celebrating the intimacy, attachment and sense of belonging I have developed with myself, others and the Cosmos. It brings me a sense of pure love, power and creativity. These are all gifts of my 13 year journey to health, wholeness and deep freedom.
Today I would say I am completely healed and whole for I truly understand and can hold the deep suffering from my PTSD, Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia. I can hold it with such a fearless compassion for myself and my lived experience.
I read this book from Peter Levine, Waking the Tiger, many years ago but one idea stayed with me. He talked about how for some people their power, passion and life force energy can cause great hypervigilance. I held on to this idea because somewhere within me it resonated with my core understanding. I am in a place of power, passion and alignment with the life force energy within me and yet my suffering has never been worse. It is making my physical conditions worse as well. My ability to hold it all with fearless compassion for myself only contributes to the compassion I can have for others experiencing the complexity of the true human experience.
For all of this I stand in wonder, awe and deep respect for who I am and how I am in the universe. I weep with deep joy and bliss for the wonder of my life and for my being deeply connected to the creative evolutionary impulse within me and around me as I am. These are great things to celebrate this Holiday Season.
Best wishes to you all this Holiday Season.