I cannot believe I have come to a place in my life where I can honor all of my life experiences and myself and see clearly how they have contributed to my unique and whole self expressed in the world today. This includes honoring all of my stories of sexual assaults, early trauma and volatility as well as my illnesses – PTSD, Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia which are a direct result of that early and chronic trauma. In addition, I have found the ability to honor the depth of my pensive sadness for my life experiences as well. This pensive sadness includes holding gently the sadness and suffering of the earth as well. At the same time, I hold gently the deep joy and bliss I have for my present life, combining love, safety and beauty. Again, this is all part of my full spectrum self being expressed authentically in the world and universe.
I am thrilled I have combined all of these pieces in my life into a state of pure wholeness. It took me 14 years to get to this place but I am here and I am living vibrantly and consciously as a result. To be in this place is to know great freedom and profound love – a dream come true.
It has been quite some time since I have written but I feel compelled to write again. I feel this powerful impulse to create through the written word but I have no idea where to start. So much has happened for me since I last blogged. Right now I am metabolizing and becoming deeply rooted with all the new learnings that have come my way over the last 14 years of trying to cure my Severe PTSD, Chronic Fatigue and Fibromyalgia. What I have come to is this place where I am able to celebrate as Karen Drucker says, “All is well. I can rest. I am safe. All is well.”Continue reading →